The Weighting Game

Sooooooooooooooooooo, it’s Week 2 and I am waiting to be "weighed-in." I am wondering if I have lost any weight, knowing that I have been CHEATING. Oooooooo the wonderfully dangerous world of cheating. It is an addiction I admit. I have a Love-Hate relationship with cheating. I love to do it, but I hate it when it’s over. I have tried to "quit" cheating...."dump" it I mean. I have tried to kick cheating to the proverbial curb! Alas, it finds me again. Time and time again, cheating worms its way back into my life. Such a slippery little sucker that cheating! DAMMIT! As soon as I think I have that habit kicked....it creeps up again, and again, and a again and again.

So, with all this prep, you can imagine what happens when I step on the scale: "Hmmmm....," she says. "Let me see your food journal lady." And I am like "Shit..." "You owe me a dollar," she says. So as I look at the scale the new weight is: 241. Now typically this would cause my spirits to spiral down a long, dark, winding PIT OF DESPAIR. But Nooooooooooooooooooooooo, I am a "big girl" and I knew what would happen if I did not stick to the plan and I did NOT stick to the plan in a BIG way! Soooooooooooooooooo, no more RICE for me....and I LOVE rice almost as much as I love cheating! Hahahahaha!

I managed to get in a better mood with the help of the Cardio Hip-Hop class which was PACKED! Goodness! It was yet another GREAT class. There are so many people in there at different levels and most of the girls in there are young white girls with tight bodies, protruding bones and a pretty good handle on how to stick out their butts (LOL). The rest of us are early/mid 30's to early/mid 60's.....Now this is MY CREW seriously! My partner in the class in a tall black woman who must be at least in her late 30's. She is a wonderful person who is always giving me tips on how to get the weight off and keep it that way! Her spirit is light and warm and she is on the Blue Team as well! I am looking forward to seeing her every week in class b/c she never gives up and she gives it her ALL!

Well, I am tired.

Dinner report: Chicken leg quarter with a HUGE bowl of salad (olive oil dressing) and Diet Coke! NO rice to be seen.

Weight: 241